How awfully good it feels in the warm embrace of my inner mother.
I have trouble remembering my mother’s face whenever she acted in her role as a mother.
Motherhood-as-self-sacrifice feels like a woven yarn, warm and tangled, wrapped tightly around my impaired body.
Parricide by children has not only been the topic in psychological analysis but also the theme of major works of literature and art, in forms like the Oedipus Complex, the Ajase Complex and so on…
But mothers murdered by their daughters seems to be a special, rare case. Japanese psychologist Tamaki Saito says: “Mother and daughter share the same body, through which they are united. The negation of the mother means the negation of oneself.”
“The first child for Takeshi, the second for Mai.”
The Takeshi here is my father, Mai my sister.
I recently found that line in my mother’s nursing diary. I can’t get the idea out of my head—a person “for someone else”.
I had thought I could accept myself by denying my self and conforming to others.
For many children, the first other in life is the mother.
I believed I could save myself by being sensitive to the desires of others (in whom I saw my mother), and by making myself a person who is convenient for other people.
But it is not so easy to do. I could never be whom others wanted me to be, whom my mother wanted me to be.
Now, I have to perform my own initiation rite. Unless I kill the mother in my imagination and begin to stand on my own two feet, I realized, I will forever live relying on the control of someone else, my mother.
It was about ten years ago.
I was completely absorbed in cosplay, an act of imitation that involves dressing up as characters from anime and manga, and noticed something strange.
As my friend and I kept dressing up as male characters from Boys Love games, a complicated kind of love began to develop between us. We loved each other not as girls but as the BL characters we dressed up as.
We did not face each other with our usual genders or as the persons we were. The emotional love we felt when cosplaying as BL characters began, secretly, to pervade our everyday lives and developed into a real feelings between us.
At the time, we both pretended not to notice the feelings happening between us. As we continued roleplaying the BL characters to catch a further glimpse of their fictitious (real) stories, before we knew it we had started enacting a story that differed from theirs; a story about them but not really them, one that belonged to us, tied to reality.
The artist YuKI YUKI contributes two video artworks to the sale. They were displayed on the back and inside the womb of a giant knitted doll, an installation piece first unveiled as part of the “Listen to her Song” group exhibition at Tokyo University of the Arts in 2020.
The title “For your own good” is an attempt to unravel the artist’s stagnant mother-and-daughter relationship, a bond marked by self-sacrifice, devoted service and control by the mother.
In the video piece placed at the back of the knitted figure, the artist externalizes the ‘inner mother’ controlling her in the form of knitted fabric that she then breaks up and sheds like skin—an initiation rite through matricide. But the result is failure, and the artist only becomes closer with her inner mother. The piece depicts the difficulty involved for a daughter to kill her mother.
Therefore, instead of engaging her inner mother, the artist decides to face her real mother by knitting a giant woolen doll together. It is modeled after “Sanko, the third daughter”, a baby doll that the mother caressed and loved in place of her two daughters after the artist and her sister had grown up.
The video artwork placed within the womb of this giant “Sanko” depicts the romantic relationship developing between two BL cosplayers (“Boys Love”, a manga genre involving homoerotic stories). In the video, the artist and her friend, both cosplaying as male characters, slowly unravel each other’s woolen masks and clothes, as if undressing one another. In the process, they unravel their woolen penises until they disappear. As they untie each other’s fabric, the love between them grows deeper.
By inserting the special kind of love depicted in the video into the doll—the loving maternal bond that never truly materialized—the artist attempts to unravel her stagnant relationship with her mother.
The special love came originally came about when the artist engaged in BL cosplay ten years ago, together with the friend who also appears in the video. As they continued roleplaying the relationships of BL characters, the fictional love they acted out began to pervade into their everyday reality.
As they superimposed various roles—cosplay, gender, male-to-male relationships and so on—onto their own bodies in the world of play, the gender roles and archetypes forced upon us in the real world slowly collapsed, and in a way they were able to love each other unburdened and with purity.
This love, free of any preconceived stereotypes, becomes the key in unblocking a relationship that suffocates under the fixed roles of mother and daughter. And further, it can show us a new kind of sexual love.
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